Welcome Friends!

Ahoy there homies. I have created a blog so that all you suckaaas can keep up in my life since i dont get to talk/see you as often as i would like. So all you zepps, and palmer/butlers, and burbanks, and sisters, and cousins best be reading this seeing as i love you enough to take some of my precious time and spend it posting on the internet like a loser. I havent done this since livejournal. what was that...junior year? ha what a silly time in my life.

Anywho, i have made the firm decision not to go to UCSC. Not right now at least. I will extend my leave for the rest of the year, and am planning on taking some writing and philosophy classes at Cabrillo. I have done so many things in my life, just for the sake of doing them, brushing by with no effort and gaining no real reward, and i don't want to do that right now. My head is in a wondrous place and school is going to burn the life out of it. i know i'm super dramatic.

I am currently getting together with some very talented people and collaborating to attempt something super spunky. A friend of mine has a production company that she wants to get going, and along with some producers, dj's, dancers, and costumes hopefully some cool things can go down. its kind of exciting to be able to do something that i really want to do, and spread some beauty in the world.

Santa cruz has done good for me. I hit rock bottom, but today was actually my last therapy session. whooo kendal is no longer losing her fucking mind! well i am, but in a good way. i am learning how to feel again and letting go of a lot. It was a fast transition, but somehow i changed a perception that was embedded in me for the past 20 yrs. i like, dont want to die. weird.

i came here and entered a world of dubstep and kittens, met some beautiful people, and found more beauty in those i already had. i came to peace with myself. its wild. i've never felt it before.

i've decided to just let myself be human. ewww humans are weird. i will continue to drive myself crazy with all the answers that cannot be answered, but that's just who i am.

So this friday is the Winter Solstice Party at Cellspace in San Fran.
Dub Pirates
Rastatronics
Eprom
Little John
An-ten-nae
Tim Monkey
Mozaic
and more.

I will be there with mi amigos, gettin super silly and havin a goood time. See ya!


Also, i will be posting excerpts of novels and such that i have written which i have yet to share with anyone in this world....